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yupp. now it's officially about 4:15 and i am online!!

i tink i have been having too much ample sleep these days, so i need to torture myself with some deprivation.
i haven't been so slack in a long time, and i think that's what being slack does to me.

i'm not even helping out with the household chores much.
what the hell am i caught up with?
oh no, i am a bad girl.

i just finished reading a book,
and that book makes me laugh.
like, i can be giggling and trying to suppress my laughter,
cos my sis would be asleep while i am trying to read to sleep.
but it's really hilarious.
the girl is so stupid.

but i really dont like that they have sex alot in the book,
and the girl's best friend dumped her bf and became lesbian.
no no, not nice embellishments.

okay, now i am feeling a bit sleepy,
prolly cos i just ate chicken rice.

YUPP! chicken rice, at 3:45am.
yummy shit.
and now my younger sis is up,
(YES AT 4:15am)
sipping milo to keep herself awake as she tries to do more homework.

btw i think my younger sis is crazy.
she is stressed abt o's.
and even wants to buy additional assessments and stuff.
siao!

i feel like telling a story today.
hmm. i shall tell u all something about me.

(oh no, as i am racking my brain on what is appropriate to be shared, i realise everything is turning out emo.)
is my life that sad?

let's talk about embarrassing moments.

i used to be a really shy girl.
and that always got me into a lot of trouble,
cos i am always scared to speak up,
even when i really need to go to the toilet!

in kindergarten,
i infuriated my teachers a lot,
cos i always peed during class.
hahah!
and somehow,
maybe because i tahan all the way through the lessons,
i always pee at the end of the class,
when everyone is queuing at the door.
so i always go home with a wet dress,
while my teachers complain to whoever it was that fetched me.
hahhaaha, i just gave them extra chores.

and one time,
it was my aunt who fetched me.
and as usual, my dress was wet,
but i didn't tell her why.
but somehow,
she felt the dampness of my dress,
and she asked me whether i peed in my dress.

i just shrugged,
for i was a girl of few words.
(i was well-known for being autistic.)
and then she said,
"eeee, shame shame, pee in your pants."
i just kept quiet,
and went home to change into a new set of clothes,
and went on doing my own thing,
not making another sound.

so in primary 4,
i actually peed in class.
HAHA!
in the music room.
cos i tried to tahan,
and when i really couldnt tahan anymore,
i just let go.

sssshhhhh...
a puddle of pee formed around me.
and the boy i had a crush on back then,
was sitting diagonally behind me.

and he was actually sniggering at me.

i totally didnt want to go to school the next day!
but i braved it,
and went to school,
despite the whispers and the weird looks my classmates give me.

i am weird like that,
shy,
and yet,
i act brave.

and to think about it,
i know there was once i kinda pooed in my pants.
well, not in class,
but somehow,
i think i had diarrhoea,
and then i couldnt take off my pants in time,
and so there it was...

poo-poo in my pants.

and my poor classmate,
who had accompanied me to the toilet,
had to go get a new set of uniform for me.

haha i can still remember,
she asked me,
"how come can like that?"

and i just said,
"i dont know!".

hahhaa.
i was really stupid last time eh?

i am glad,
now,
i dare to ask for permission to go to the toilet.
and much more than that.

1. I hate it when my feet itch. Like omg, i forgot what is the name of the feet equivalent of palm?? shit. but ya, when it itches, its damn irritating to scratch cos its like itchy and then ticklish!

2. My ankle is busted:( fico busts my ankle. now i feel like an injured soccer player, and it sucks. (reminds me of the guy we saw at fico who wore two knee guards together.siao!!)

3. today 151Prime training was fun and tiring. omg 2V2 was damn tiring please. but i like the feeling.

4. Suddenly i feel like i know how easy it is to be selfish, on the excuse of competitiveness. I saw the dark side. and i swear, i am not gonna go there. i wont allow it to happen to anyone else, cos i know how it feels to be on the receiving end.

5. I will go loan-shopping tmr!

6. i just came up with a name for my lomocamera. he is called Alejandro Lomo. anddd, do u know what Alejandro means? Thanks to CJ for the enlightenment.

cj                   [james 1:22] says (1:08 AM):
 # ALEJANDRO: Spanish form of Latin Alexandrus, meaning "defender of mankind."


WOw! the coincidence is so cool. That's such a me thing to choose. and i did it unknowingly!

7. I wanna see Westlife concert, even though there is no more Brian McFadden in there :\ HAHHA!

8. I'd choose karaoke with friends over movie watching anyday, for entertainment. Karaoke is so fun! movie watching makes me feel lazy. and a lot of things happen in cinemas, such that i always get a sleazy feeling when i think of couples going to watch movie tgt. haahha OOPS!

9. I still havent had my break, since my M'sia trip is cancelled. but oh well, at least now i got more free time on my hands since i got "sacked" recently. hahhaa.

10. I might just be going mambo this wednesday. hahaha. i wonder if it will materialise. anyone wanna join? hahaha.

goodnight lovelypeople!

This New Year has definitely been a change. with the lack of real fireworks though.
But yes! I'm glad its a brand new year, leaving the horrid old 2009 behind. I really really really hope things would change for the better. *Crosses fingers!





















Oh how i actually love polaroids!











2010 is here for me to:

- Achieve lots of stuff!
- Get a Driving license please.
- Get a tattoo, somewhere hidden. Pretty Sure on this one.
- Turn 21 in the greatest way possible.


Day 3 of 2010, have fun everyone!

the year 2009 began with flying freely with the gusts of marina barrage.



we didnt have a kite the first time, but that made us yearn for the real thing.

and so we got it.



and began the sessions at kent ridge. courtesy of candy and hong.





i spent CNY with my Indian Kayapapa.






we learnt to use facilities available in NUS, such as an oven.







i had a number of karaoke sessions, beginning with one with my previous placement colleagues:)
always young at heart.



then IHG.
talents scorching in the blazing sun.





first birthday: my eldest daughter, mango.



i managed to catch yokie once! yummy horlicks icecream from (the now-defunct?) pukka.





this was in celebration of mitch's belated birthday.



milo, milo, all round in 2009.
and it'll never end, until 2010 ends cos by then milo-crazy seniors would have graduated.





2nd pseudo-family birthday: my 2nd daughter, amoeba tiong





commemorating 10th FF.



the one, and only, time we skyped as a TUB.



and of course, sunsets.



jesline's party:) my first attendance at an official 21st party of 2009.





attending a Malay drama, since my old friend Dee was acting in it.



UNDERGROUND LUNCH MOVEMENT.
oh, how we've grown:)



it was also a year for bball machine.



and studying sessions were always highlighted by acts of amusement.









and sometimes, i get drunk without alcohol.



3rd birthday: cj rekha-ka



this was just a random yellow day.



our first time at 18chefs:)
too bad fusionopolis branch now seems to be shut down.







my sistaaaa.
definitely someone that i treasure dearly.



151Prime's first official tourny i think!







graduating from my 2nd placement.





learning about music and singing at the centre.







meeting up with aini, keeping her acquainted with the local flavour.





karaoke again!



happy birthday singapore:)
we took the pledge together at 8:22pm.
cj, where's the video?? hahah.



then, it took a turn for our 3some days of camwhoring fun and feasting.





Birthday again: my dear Kayapapa (husband who keeps gallivanting to India)











then came Hari Raya. this is my real family, in my real home.



and this is my pseudo family, in my pseudo home (cos it's nissa's place), 
but still Hari Raya.



Abidah's 21st, yummy at carousel.





2009 was a year for me to step up, and join the SSWS committee.
no regrets about it, as yet ;P



October baby: BlackBird!







and then the contest of having the person with more photos tagged on fb came about.
i can't stand losing, so i try ways and means to keep my lead!



NOVEMBER!
4 birthdays: the twins, man and meryl sheng siong, candy and sarah
terrible terrible time organising and settling presents!
but worth it i suppose:)





one of my fave classes.
this is the lecturer who loves to pick on me in class,
and he says its cos he likes my green glasses.



jes is a big part of 2009 too.
spent more time, understood each other more.



meteor shower of 2009, which would only occur again in another 50 years is it?
yeah, but i only saw 1 cos i was frigging tired.



Madolan's birthday.
one that i will never miss, cos i know it's nice to have ppl rmbr
and celebrate ur birthday with u.

the special feeling of feeling special:)





and mat's birthday:)
its easy to fool this monkey!



starbucks was a big part of the end of my 2009.
its such an enjoyable treat to my stressful times.

peppermint mocha yummy!



huihui's birthday 21st party!
i felt like princess:)



managed to get an outing with cousins too:)
fondue at max brenners, yummy.
time spent together, even better.



yupp, 4 years of soulsisterhood:)

(but got diarrhoea after that. hahahha!)



then it's my birthday!!!

celebrated it 3 times with a cake:) (twice at breeks. hahaha.)





working at qtfsc was also rewarding:)
jas is a great companion!





this is most of the bunch of cousins on my maternal side.
pretty small huh, for a malay family. hahaa.



SG IDOL! hahaha.
great time spent with amoebationg:)
SCREAMSCREAM and SINGSING.
S and S.
Sezairi and Sylvia.
both winners, personality and passion.



squeezed in soccer in december too,
with soccer jam.
2nd appearance of 151Prime i'd think:)

many lessons learnt, but it's all part of the journey!



caught up with primary school mates, and it was great fun.
especially to know that even in the mess, there will still be some glitter.

haha, yes that is how screwed my primary school is.




last party attended: julielo's 21st!
great fun, especially spent with chickyclub:)



and that's the end!

didnt have photos of celebrating ellen's bday cos i didnt go for it.
i promise to go in 2010! hahaha.

and it was not a year for TUB too,
it was pretty much a 4-funked team, and sometimes even 3.
i hope it gets better in 2010 too.

and results and schoool?
i screwed up my 2009.
so the only way now is to get myself mugging.

so 2009 ended, and we have to let go of the kites that's flown high enough.

now towards 2010...
bonjour~
:)

and the song i am listening to is perfect!

Do You Remember: Jay Sean Feat Sean Paul and Lil Jon



"Baby let's take this time,
let's make new memories"

http://artpixie.tumblr.com/post/304682263/via-i175-photobucket-com

haha, somehow i cant rmbr whether i was moved to tears,
or whether i yawned so hard that i teared.

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you know when u were young, and u didnt know how to use the comp,
so u imitate what u see on tv, and so pretend to be typing intensively on the keyboard,
as do the people on tv?

that's exactly how i did it as i typed the above.

i just dont know how else to vent my frustrations.
i can't even cry anymore, cos there's no point.
i just have to wait and see.

i have to be strong.

today was a good day.
first time go out TWOgether with partner.
and also a long-time-no-meet with primary school mates.

but...

ah. i need to cheer myself up.



i dunno if this is a dugong, but i think it is one.

and dugongs , to me, represent calmness and tranquility.
i can watch them, just floating around, at underwater world.
awed.







this, prolly a cleaner and newer version, is my dream vehicle.
on par with my dream of a vespa.



i dont like bubble gum, but i think its a symbol for happiness. cos got bubble.

I just bought a bra from ASOS. I forgot how many times I actually shopped this month so I would have to say that the end year sales this time round have been pretty impressive. Good deals at yummy prices. Oh yes, speaking of which, my biggest expenditure was still on my megawatt teeth.
I'm glad that my last session with the dentist was over just last week, which left me in tears and a broken pocket. To date I actually spent close to $800 on fixing the dentures in my teeth alone this past month. And if you were to include my braces in the past, that would deem my teeth worthy of about $4000. Wow, thats like the most expensive thing on me! Thing was, I never got to visit the dentist 2 years after i removed my braces, which resulted in various tooth decays and fixures(whatever they call it) Now I sound like I have such a filthy mouth, but really, I cant sleep without brushing my teeth everyday. The dentist says its just the shape of my molars which are all concave so food gets stuck all the time. ah well, a pity I didnt realise it earlier!

So yeah, Merry Christmas anyway hohoho, it just comes and goes. Christmas was less lonely this year thanks to my boyfriend who injected christmas celebrations into my life, thank you very much. I used to have xmas dinner and shopping with my ex-family but now that the most festive and jolly person is missing, we rarely have any celebrations anymore. I cant believe how much shit i could actually produce until xmas! hahaha, 4 full days of eating and it just gets better. yay, 2 more kg for me. =x Thursday was dinner and games at John's house and Friday was massive eatout at baby's place. Im glad it ended really nicely with our little bubblebath hahah. And i actually discovered a liking towards washing dishes.











I came in 3rd for games ok!




I thought these 2 pictures were really funny! its like 2 monkeys at play.





And I finally got to meet my long time friend for shopping! Ion is pretty much the new heaven, apart from 313. We spent 1 hour in New Look and another hour in Sephora haha.



7 years of friendship and counting!



Oh and checkout baby's new fetish.....





Uncovering the treasure.




ROARRRRR





YUM YUM, you should totally try it!
Can you see how big it actually is?? Its longer than the size of my feet! impressive growth.